He finds the coffee to nurse in his lap as he thinks. He hadn't cone here with any sort of goal or script in mind, so he's internally floundering quite a bit, but that's never stopped him before.
"R-right. Well." He takes a sip just to give him something to focus on besides his own spiralling nerves. "I just... I wanted to apologise for my- my reaction, to your-" he feels his face heat up, despite himself. "Your news, the other day, but-- moreover I wanted to reassure you that--"
He takes a breath and sighs. Fuck, why was this so hard from the other side?? That seems cruel and unusual.
"I still want to be- w-whatever we are, now, doctor. You're still one of my best friends on this ship, someone I care- deeply about. I don't want to lose you, and that means- I can't push you away because of my own fears, any more than I'd let someone else harm you over me."
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"R-right. Well." He takes a sip just to give him something to focus on besides his own spiralling nerves. "I just... I wanted to apologise for my- my reaction, to your-" he feels his face heat up, despite himself. "Your news, the other day, but-- moreover I wanted to reassure you that--"
He takes a breath and sighs. Fuck, why was this so hard from the other side?? That seems cruel and unusual.
"I still want to be- w-whatever we are, now, doctor. You're still one of my best friends on this ship, someone I care- deeply about. I don't want to lose you, and that means- I can't push you away because of my own fears, any more than I'd let someone else harm you over me."