He wants to laugh, because that always makes him feel uncomfortable when Malcolm asks that same question. "A little sick, honestly. Like I shouldn't have, o-or afraid that you're going to turn around and start warning people away from me." He knows that isn't quite rational, but it's a thought that runs through his mind often.

"I- I don't... I haven't stopped feeling disgusted and ashamed of myself since he left." And like usual once the moment was over, his clear mind was flooded again with thoughts, regret, shame, fear. It hasn't exactly been a good week.