"I've been incredibly frustrated with myself, and that doesn't help me maintain any kind of control. And when I talk to someone, if I feel like they should be reacting some way, and they aren't it just makes me angrier...I-" He huffs a soft breath, trying to not find that same frustration from earlier that morning.

"I had a difficult conversation with Alexei this morning, and I came into it knowing that he was going to be angry with me, but...all he gave me was calm, even though I could tell he was mad, it...didn't make any sense to me. I haven't done anything recently to deserve that, but then I told him that, and he was so confused."