Abel sits for a moment, trying to piece together all of the reasons why, there are quite a few of them. "For one, he asked me to come to him first when I had problems that involved him before, and I didn't. I can go into the whole of why if you'd like me to, but...I figured he'd be upset, because I didn't know how much he knew it affected me, and I was...concerned. The thought was if I told him, he might question what part of how I felt was real, and what part of it was the jump drive compelling me to feel that way." Which is the simplest way he can put it.

Clearly he's struggling with summarizing, because he has to add at the end, "And lastly, I keep- This isn't the first time in the last few months I've had to confess something like this, made a mistake, and each one adds up. Or at least, I thought it did. I felt like I needed to be prepared to defend my case in the chance that this was the final straw and he might just leave..."