That I'm excited for paintball. And I kinda am. Paintball's exciting. Weddings aren't. That doesn't mean I don't want to do it or that I'm not looking forward to it, but-- he should've asked Root. She would've been able to give him the answer he wanted.
Feeling nervous is normal before a wedding. It isn't something that you usually express to someone who isn't a close friend, true, but anxiety, fear, feelings of trepidation - those are all valid.
That some part of it will be disappointing to her. Or that she'll disappear or they'll wake me up before it happens. But I'm also relieved that I have a plan, and it's one that I like, because I was a little worried it'd all feel too unnatural for me and I'd just be putting up with it for her. I don't mind doing stuff that doesn't come naturally to me for her benefit, but doing stuff I hate for her benefit seems... wrong. And she wouldn't want me to do that, either.
It's difficult to change perspectives. People can imagine what it's like to live without a sense. They struggle to imagine what it's like to live without innate knowledge of their own feelings.
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That I'm excited for paintball. And I kinda am. Paintball's exciting. Weddings aren't. That doesn't mean I don't want to do it or that I'm not looking forward to it, but-- he should've asked Root. She would've been able to give him the answer he wanted.
[Root is so, so excited. It's adorable.]
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[He does agree that Root would be more excited about it, though.]
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[She says slowly, her brow furrowing.]
That some part of it will be disappointing to her. Or that she'll disappear or they'll wake me up before it happens. But I'm also relieved that I have a plan, and it's one that I like, because I was a little worried it'd all feel too unnatural for me and I'd just be putting up with it for her. I don't mind doing stuff that doesn't come naturally to me for her benefit, but doing stuff I hate for her benefit seems... wrong. And she wouldn't want me to do that, either.
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Nervous is normal. You're doing something big. Making a big change.
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[She trails off.]
It was just that one-two hit of two friends not understanding how off I am. Thinking about how put off they'd probably be if they did get it.
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