[She winces. She knows Collins had done pretty shitty things but...that was pretty awful.]
I won't then.
As for Trevor...there was some of that. But he was also... he spoke of not letting evil roam free, and how he couldn't live with himself if he did nothing in the face of it.
And that right there is his folly. He sees bad people, people who are victims themselves, as evil.
[He shakes his head, jaw clenched.]
That is what I hate here, Aerith. Every single person who comes here, every single inmate, deserves a chance. And so what did Trevor teach him except that he is evil and irredeemable because the people who are supposed to protect him attacked him, even when all he did was defend himself.
[He sits back.]
I know he's a friend of yours, Aerith, but what he did was cruel.
Trevor may be a friend of mine, but it doesn't make him less of an idiot or incapable of mistakes.
[She sighed, long and low.]
Or cruelty. I'm not agreeing with him in the least.
...actually Sheehan, do you mind if I tell you something in confidence? Most people in my world know of this but...I hope this may explain some of my own thought process.
But - Aerith. I'm sorry you've been struggling. I really am. I don't mind listening to you if that helps, but what can I do to help? Would you like me to be with you when you talk to Yunlan? I don't want you to feel like you don't have a voice to say your feelings.
You don't get to decide if I am bothered or not. You don't get to make that choice of me or of Yunlan. You deserve to be heard by someone. Me. Yunlan. Someone.
[Sheehan stands as well, but he doesn't move to stop her.]
Hey, wait a second. You’re not a bother at all, and you’re definitely not being dramatic.
[He puts a hand on his chest.] I care about you, and I want to hear what’s on your mind. It’s okay to feel this way, and it’s okay to need someone to talk to. But...I get it. If you’re up for it, I’d love to keep listening. But if you need a break, that’s okay too. Just know I’m here for you, no matter what
I care about you too Sheehan. Very much. I know you have a lot on your plate.
[She offers him a big smile, gesturing to the table.]
And it's okay. There's nothing to talk about. So there's no need for a break or anything. Consider it all forgotten.
Please enjoy the tea. I'm sure it'll be wonderful. And- could you say hi to Saga for me? I'll have to try to drop by again, especially after her tolling.
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I won't then.
As for Trevor...there was some of that. But he was also... he spoke of not letting evil roam free, and how he couldn't live with himself if he did nothing in the face of it.
Or go back to his family.
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And that right there is his folly. He sees bad people, people who are victims themselves, as evil.
[He shakes his head, jaw clenched.]
That is what I hate here, Aerith. Every single person who comes here, every single inmate, deserves a chance. And so what did Trevor teach him except that he is evil and irredeemable because the people who are supposed to protect him attacked him, even when all he did was defend himself.
[He sits back.]
I know he's a friend of yours, Aerith, but what he did was cruel.
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[She sighed, long and low.]
Or cruelty. I'm not agreeing with him in the least.
...actually Sheehan, do you mind if I tell you something in confidence? Most people in my world know of this but...I hope this may explain some of my own thought process.
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[He doesn't want to force her.]
CW: death, mind control
[She is quiet for a long few moments.]
Sephiroth killed me.
Not here. But at home. He jumped down behind me, and ran me through with his sword.
I came here when I died.
And...I learned...he had been trying to force Cloud, one of my closest friends to kill me before he decided to take action with mind control.
He's been here for years, Sheehan. And he's close to the men I love and...
There's little I can do about it without looking like the villain.
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[He picks the cup up again.]
What would you do?
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I haven't known what to do for months. And I have no idea what to do.
If I make this public knowledge, or tried to isolate him socially...it wouldn't be right. It wouldn't help.
I just...wish he would apologize.
If I could...I'd just press him for that. A sincere apology.
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I think that's a fair ask, Aerith.
Have you talked to Yunlan about it?
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He's been distracted with his partner leaving. And before...I don't know.
I like him, but. I don't know the work he's put in.
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I don't know, Aerith. I would start with him, actually.
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But I think that's why I'm struggling, personally with...everything these past few weeks.
Plus the alarms.
[Those gave her some monster headaches at least a couple of mornings.]
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[He grumbles about it as he grumbled during.]
But - Aerith. I'm sorry you've been struggling. I really am. I don't mind listening to you if that helps, but what can I do to help? Would you like me to be with you when you talk to Yunlan? I don't want you to feel like you don't have a voice to say your feelings.
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A warden. He's had it rough.
[She's not going to defend Thrawn, even if she understands his mind on the matter. She's been placing silence spells every morning.
Plus she cried at him the first morning, so he knows he messed up.]
I'm sorry Sheehan. I didn't mean to- make this personal.
It's...fine. I mean, it's not fine but- you're already busy. So is Yunlan. He doesn't need to hear this.
I shouldn't have bothered you with this. I'm really sorry.
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You don't get to decide if I am bothered or not. You don't get to make that choice of me or of Yunlan. You deserve to be heard by someone. Me. Yunlan. Someone.
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[She shook her head, and made to stand up.]
The idea of- all of that for my ego- I'm not comfortable with it.
I'm okay, Sheehan. I'm being dramatic.
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Hey, wait a second. You’re not a bother at all, and you’re definitely not being dramatic.
[He puts a hand on his chest.] I care about you, and I want to hear what’s on your mind. It’s okay to feel this way, and it’s okay to need someone to talk to. But...I get it. If you’re up for it, I’d love to keep listening. But if you need a break, that’s okay too. Just know I’m here for you, no matter what
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[She offers him a big smile, gesturing to the table.]
And it's okay. There's nothing to talk about. So there's no need for a break or anything. Consider it all forgotten.
Please enjoy the tea. I'm sure it'll be wonderful. And- could you say hi to Saga for me? I'll have to try to drop by again, especially after her tolling.
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"Aerith. I am always here when you need someone to talk to, alright?"
And as much as he hates it, he inclines his head and sits down to let her go.
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Abd she hurried off, feeling foolish for her confession.