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[heyboss]

What stopped you?

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[cactusy]

Captivity made me pretty good at dissociation. I can do it kind of halfway, too; when Decima had me, I used to use it to avoid being totally present while still keeping an eye on my surroundings. It's useful for not losing my cool.

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[heyboss]

Useful, but is it harmful?

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[cactusy]

Why... would it be?

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[heyboss]

Letting go of yourself in order to keep your cool. There's always a chance that you will struggle to get it back.

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[cactusy]

I'm still as alert as I need to be. My response and reaction times are still up to snuff.

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[heyboss]

What do you feel when you come back? In your head? In your chest? Any different than baseline?

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[cactusy]

Uh--

I don't know. I don't think so, but I never paid much attention to it, and in captivity, there was always other stuff going on like simulations or sedation.

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[heyboss]

Next time, pay attention. See if there's a difference.

I thought of another person you could talk to about Malcolm.

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[cactusy]

Yeah?

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[heyboss]

Crozier.

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[cactusy]

Okay. You think I should wait a bit first, so he's not getting too many people at once? Jesus thinks we should have a lot of people working on him, and I get that, but I'm thinking maybe staggering them would be good.

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[heyboss]

I would tell Crozier now and let him decide. I get the impression that they're close, but I trust him to make objective decisions.

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[cactusy]

Yeah, okay. I'll give it a try.

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[heyboss]

Thank you.

And remember what I asked for, Shaw. I appreciate you telling me all of this.

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[cactusy]

Yeah. And thanks for, uh... I dunno. All of it.

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[heyboss]

Anytime.

I'm glad you know that.