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[heyboss]

I know you think that.

I know they made you think that.

But you were not given a choice. Not really.

You might have known what you were doing, but would you have chosen the same way if the other choice was freedom?

[reargunner]

[Pardon him for about five minutes while he has a brief anxiety spiral.]

If I didn't have to do any of it and they'd just let me go?

No, of course not. I wouldn't have done any of it.

[heyboss]

Then it's not a choice. It wasn't something you wanted to do on your own.

It's a forced choice, which is what people use when they want someone to do something and make it seem like it was their idea.

[reargunner]

I still didn't have to do it like I did.

I could have been nicer to him.

You've seen that scar on his lip, right? I did that. I did it to make sure everyone knew which navigator was mine.

[heyboss]

I'm not clearing you, Cain. You did things you shouldn't. You did things you aren't proud of.

But it's exhausting to carry guilt you didn't earn.

[reargunner]

How did I NOT earn this.

Maybe it wasn't all me. But saying I was put in a shitty position doesn't absolve me of responsibility for my actions.

I didn't even always feel bad about it. How fucked up is that.

[heyboss]

Your mind adapted to what it needed to.

It makes sense.

[reargunner]

How can you be so fucking nice about this?

[heyboss]

You are not the monster you think you are, Cain.

[reargunner]

I don't think I'm a monster!

I don't.
I'm not.

I'm just too good at pretending to be one.

[heyboss]

You're not.

I am sorry that you were made to act like one.

[reargunner]

Thanks.

I think.
I don't know where to go with this now.

It would be easier if you were pissed at me.

[heyboss]

I know.

But there's nothing you need to do.

Do you still want to apologize?

[reargunner]

To Abel?

Yeah. I have to.
He deserves it.

[heyboss]

Then start there.

And don't worry about me.

[reargunner]

Missed the boat on that, honestly.

[heyboss]

Yeah, I figured.

When are you going to talk to him about it?

It might help to give yourself a timeline.

[reargunner]

Haven't thought that far ahead yet.

[heyboss]

Alright.

Now would be the moment to think.

[reargunner]

I asked you for advice, not to patronise me.

[heyboss]

I didn't mean for that to be patronizing. I'm sorry. I just wondered if you think you might want to determine the right time for it.

[reargunner]

This was hard enough to come to as it was.

And Abel's still struggling with some shit after the Narrenschiff. I don't want to spring this on him without thinking it through.

[heyboss]

I understand.

If you ned to talk it out again, you know where to find me?

I'm honored that you trusted me with this, Cain. I really am.

[reargunner]

Yeah, well.

I figured you wouldn't try to turn it against me.
And you're all right. For a shrink.

[heyboss]

That's a pretty high compliment.

Thank you.