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That depends on how one defines 'immeasurable harm', Doctor Sheehan.
I set a series of alarms to test the ship and its passengers in case of danger. In response, I have been hit, threatened, beaten, placed in Zero, lost important allies, had my projects stripped from me, and now I find myself here explaining my actions yet again. My warden has told me I have broken hearts - his, and Aerith's.
The variety of responses to this compared to, say, a murder, and shattering of a heart would indicate harm beyond measure, no?
I estimated about 50 to 70% of the ship's passengers would take action and attempt to find the source of the alarms and either proceed to the exits as intended, or take steps to eliminate the alarms at their source. The plan was to divide these groups into two: the helpful, and the obstinate and reluctant to change.
A further estimated 10 to 20% of residents would either ignore the alarms entirely and not adhere to evacuation protocols, or be too overwhelmed to do as instructed either through animal reaction, searching for friends, family and allies, or through trauma responses.
A final estimated 5 to 10% would have no context of these alarms due to no evacuation procedure on their home worlds and would need further direction for compliance.
I anticipated confusion, anger, resignation, and acceptance. I knew that I am an unpopular and strange inmate who nonetheless has earned the backing of Wardens Burke and Rawne, and made plans to transfer the alarms and manual to one or both of them so that they could conduct further annual reviews at their leisure, once I had made my departure. There is no possible outcome where the wardens here will agree on a need for an overall alert system, agree as to who will carry it out, and agree to a regular maintenance schedule. It must come from an inmate first, because animosity can be redirected at me for 'not knowing any better' and later upheld as a partially good idea now that it exists, but no one was going to install them first to begin with. Someone must take the leap and the 'heat'.
There was a non-zero chance I would be removed from Maintenance. A non-zero chance I would be tortured or killed. A non-zero chance I would be ignored entirely. These were extremely unlikely responses, but would speak to needing more research done on the fringes of known Barge residents.
I planned for several of the most likely possibilities. If you are asking which I had hoped would occur, I can tell you that I can work with many of the outcomes, advantageous or no.
[oh, were you hoping for more elaboration? Sorry, Sheehan: Thrawn has decided that this feels remarkably like how he had been studied his entire time in Imperial space. He knows from experience that more questions will follow; best to save his energy instead of attempting to explain himself to those who do not care.
He will follow Florian's instructions and not be purposely obstinate, but nor does he feel the need to elaborate further unless directed.]
[Thrawn would disagree - he is compelled here by Florian and the threat of not graduating. His eyes narrow at the mention of art. Florian will have mentioned that, of course.
He changes the subject.]
You say you are here to discuss things within my realm of comfort, Dr. Sheehan. I have had conversations at length with Florian that a graduation is intended to be uncomfortable. I believe I phrased it as 'pain will have to be our guide'.
I would like a brief summary of what you intend for these sessions to do and why, as well as what assignments you feel I need to complete.
[The mention of art was given by Florian, yes, but Sheehan's
comparatively newly acquired interest in art is what he has been basing his entire counseling strategies on with mixed success. Still, he is a sucker
for new ideas, new lives, and had been looking forward to actually engaging with Thrawn on that level. But it can wait. His smile is polite.]
Graduation cannot be your goal, Thrawn, or you won't graduate.
My warden believes the opposite. That my numerous projects dedicated to self-and-environmental improvement are mere distractions from the overarching, ultimate goal of graduation.
Progress doesn’t always look the same for everyone, which is a reality on this ship. It might mean understanding yourself better or finding new ways to handle challenges. It’s not about being ‘fixed’—it’s about small steps that make your life here feel a bit more manageable or meaningful.
So - Thrawn. How would you define progress for yourself?
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That depends on how one defines 'immeasurable harm', Doctor Sheehan.
I set a series of alarms to test the ship and its passengers in case of danger. In response, I have been hit, threatened, beaten, placed in Zero, lost important allies, had my projects stripped from me, and now I find myself here explaining my actions yet again. My warden has told me I have broken hearts - his, and Aerith's.
The variety of responses to this compared to, say, a murder, and shattering of a heart would indicate harm beyond measure, no?
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It does.
Do you understand how your actions caused them harm?
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Perhaps in the future, these people can come to you to work through them.
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Did you understand that before you decided to set the alarms?
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[He starts to make columns on the page.
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Do you wish for my risk assessment report?
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A further estimated 10 to 20% of residents would either ignore the alarms entirely and not adhere to evacuation protocols, or be too overwhelmed to do as instructed either through animal reaction, searching for friends, family and allies, or through trauma responses.
A final estimated 5 to 10% would have no context of these alarms due to no evacuation procedure on their home worlds and would need further direction for compliance.
I anticipated confusion, anger, resignation, and acceptance. I knew that I am an unpopular and strange inmate who nonetheless has earned the backing of Wardens Burke and Rawne, and made plans to transfer the alarms and manual to one or both of them so that they could conduct further annual reviews at their leisure, once I had made my departure. There is no possible outcome where the wardens here will agree on a need for an overall alert system, agree as to who will carry it out, and agree to a regular maintenance schedule. It must come from an inmate first, because animosity can be redirected at me for 'not knowing any better' and later upheld as a partially good idea now that it exists, but no one was going to install them first to begin with. Someone must take the leap and the 'heat'.
There was a non-zero chance I would be removed from Maintenance. A non-zero chance I would be tortured or killed. A non-zero chance I would be ignored entirely. These were extremely unlikely responses, but would speak to needing more research done on the fringes of known Barge residents.
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That's a lot of actions that you anticipated.
Did it work out like you planned?
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Has that always been your habit?
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[oh, were you hoping for more elaboration? Sorry, Sheehan: Thrawn has decided that this feels remarkably like how he had been studied his entire time in Imperial space. He knows from experience that more questions will follow; best to save his energy instead of attempting to explain himself to those who do not care.
He will follow Florian's instructions and not be purposely obstinate, but nor does he feel the need to elaborate further unless directed.]
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But he does - wonder - ]
Sometimes words don’t feel like the right way to communicate. Would you be open to doing something different, like drawing or writing?
I work in the art gazebo mostly, you know. I spend a lot of time on doodles and simply - expressing myself in that way.
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He changes the subject.]
You say you are here to discuss things within my realm of comfort, Dr. Sheehan. I have had conversations at length with Florian that a graduation is intended to be uncomfortable. I believe I phrased it as 'pain will have to be our guide'.
I would like a brief summary of what you intend for these sessions to do and why, as well as what assignments you feel I need to complete.
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[The mention of art was given by Florian, yes, but Sheehan's comparatively newly acquired interest in art is what he has been basing his entire counseling strategies on with mixed success. Still, he is a sucker for new ideas, new lives, and had been looking forward to actually engaging with Thrawn on that level. But it can wait. His smile is polite.]
Graduation cannot be your goal, Thrawn, or you won't graduate.
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You have evidence of that claim?
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[He nods.]
I've led two to graduation myself. Counseled others who have gone on to graduate.
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Mm. I don't necessarily think we are of different opinions on this.
I am curious about your self improvement projects, though? What the focus is.
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May we return to my earlier question of what these sessions are to accomplish, and the markers that indicate progression?
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Progress doesn’t always look the same for everyone, which is a reality on this ship. It might mean understanding yourself better or finding new ways to handle challenges. It’s not about being ‘fixed’—it’s about small steps that make your life here feel a bit more manageable or meaningful.
So - Thrawn. How would you define progress for yourself?
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