He shakes his head. "No, Max. This is not about punishment. If punishment like you know worked, you'd have a much different life. We all would, I think."
He looks over and shrugs. "It depends on you. We'll work on you learning new ways of doing things. New values about yourself. We're going to take everything you were taught about yourself and how the world works and we're going to challenge it. And then you'll learn how to challenge your views on your own until you're able to do this independently."
Sheehan looks back at him. "No one said you were, Max. But you've been touched by trauma, by hard things in your life. That changed the way you saw the world and how you react to it."
He looks at the sentence. "I know that, Max. I know that you are. You're strong. You're clever. You're brave. But I want you to think about the mind like any other part of your body. You have to maintain it. Keep it strong, too. Heal it when it hurts. We all do."
"We come from a time when people don't know a lot about psychology and the
brain. But I was doing my best to learn all about it because it was
important to me," he explains.
Oh. That's sad. He hobbles along beside him, considering what he wants to say. Being gentle ain't anything he knows in person. He's seen it on the television but
Well, he doesn't think Doc'll get mad if he's bad at this.
I'm sorry about your friend. I hope it's better now.
He's watching Sheehan carefully and it's obvious there's more to it than he's saying but he's not going to press. Doc's been good to him. No reason to make things hard on him.
He eyes the communicator and shakes his head. "Because it - it doesn't matter. At least, not to me. And I imagine the answer is not that you enjoy it, but that it is simply something you do. Do I enjoy getting up and getting dressed every day? Not really because it's just something I do. I get some enjoyment out of choosing the right clothes and matching colors, but I don't get enjoyment out of the act of dressing." He looks up to Max. "Am I close?"
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I'll think about it.
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Aren't you supposed to fix me? Doesn't that mean you gotta punish me for what I done?
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He shakes his head. "No, Max. This is not about punishment. If punishment like you know worked, you'd have a much different life. We all would, I think."
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What is this?
Why does he want him to have what he needs?
You can't raise me up right, Doc. It already happened. I'm already a monster.
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How's that work?
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But he won't say that.
How'd you learn all that?
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I ain't crazy.
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I'm not weak either. I'm strong.
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I never saw that on the tv.
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"We come from a time when people don't know a lot about psychology and the brain. But I was doing my best to learn all about it because it was important to me," he explains.
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"My first deal was to help him."
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Well, he doesn't think Doc'll get mad if he's bad at this.
I'm sorry about your friend. I hope it's better now.
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I'm glad. For both of you.
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You haven't asked me if I enjoyed what I was doing but everyone else has. Why not?
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Yes and no.
It feels good being good at something.
And it feels good making sure people can't hurt me or lock me up. Not being scared.
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