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From:

cactusy

Yeah, I'm already working with him. He thinks more voices would be better, though, and I think he has a good point.

From:

heyboss

I agree.

Unfortunately, I think my voice would only add fuel to a fire.

What brought this on, anyway?

From:

cactusy

[A pause.]

You're my therapist, so can I talk about this with you without it being considered gossip?

From:

heyboss

If it is affecting you, then no. It isn't gossip.

From:

cactusy

Long story short. Graham killed somebody. It wasn't unprovoked, but he still should have handled it differently instead of jumping straight to murder. Bright takes exception to Graham being told that what he did wasn't okay, takes exception to me hanging around more as a result instead of leaving him to his own devices - takes exception to the whole concept of Will needing to work on things, basically.

From:

heyboss

How did you react to that?

From:

cactusy

Frustration, annoyance. Firmly shutting him down. I wanted to lose my temper, but I didn't.

From:

heyboss

What stopped you?

From:

cactusy

Captivity made me pretty good at dissociation. I can do it kind of halfway, too; when Decima had me, I used to use it to avoid being totally present while still keeping an eye on my surroundings. It's useful for not losing my cool.

From:

heyboss

Useful, but is it harmful?

From:

cactusy

Why... would it be?

From:

heyboss

Letting go of yourself in order to keep your cool. There's always a chance that you will struggle to get it back.

From:

cactusy

I'm still as alert as I need to be. My response and reaction times are still up to snuff.

From:

heyboss

What do you feel when you come back? In your head? In your chest? Any different than baseline?

From:

cactusy

Uh--

I don't know. I don't think so, but I never paid much attention to it, and in captivity, there was always other stuff going on like simulations or sedation.

From:

heyboss

Next time, pay attention. See if there's a difference.

I thought of another person you could talk to about Malcolm.

From:

cactusy

Yeah?

From:

heyboss

Crozier.

From:

cactusy

Okay. You think I should wait a bit first, so he's not getting too many people at once? Jesus thinks we should have a lot of people working on him, and I get that, but I'm thinking maybe staggering them would be good.