He listens and he strokes the cat and he eventually pulls him into an embrace against his chest. "Those are wonderful, amazing things. They're all my favorite things about this place, too. But most of us come with a lifetime of knowledge and understanding about the place we came from. Attachment to that is hard to break." He breathes him in.
"Did I tell you that I thought about staying? That I considered returning just to tell Arthur and you that I couldn't do it. I was going to stay with Billy and Justine and get the house settled but...I couldn't do it. I'm afraid of it, a little. This place has become more like home than anything I've had before and certainly more like home than anything in Arkham."
"He is a grown man with the woman he loves. I did not need to be there. But...I tell you that because you aren't alone. This place scares the shit out of me sometimes, and I don't agree with the Admiral on it all, but I don't want to leave," he murmurs against his fur.
"I think Sokie wants her freedom, but I don't think she wants to leave. And Arthur is...complicated. Because of Faroe," he mutters. She isn't the only reason it is complicated for him, but she is a big one.
What Arthur believes in this case is the most important part. Because he won't allow himself near her if he has the faintest thought that he'd hurt her.
"I think that you will make her life a delight. I think that you will help her to become a clever, kind, compassionate woman who will do great things for the world and be happy. I think, John, that her life would be less bright, less joyful, without you in it."
He leans up into the hand and flops over a little chasing the hand for more petting. Then he sort of sideways biscuits, half missing Sheehan's blankets.
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
timeasmymeasure
Re: postSludge
Date: 2025-10-12 03:00 am (UTC)"Did I tell you that I thought about staying? That I considered returning just to tell Arthur and you that I couldn't do it. I was going to stay with Billy and Justine and get the house settled but...I couldn't do it. I'm afraid of it, a little. This place has become more like home than anything I've had before and certainly more like home than anything in Arkham."
Re: postSludge
Date: 2025-10-12 03:20 am (UTC)I would have understood. I'm sorry that you have to miss your son.
Re: postSludge
Date: 2025-10-12 03:30 am (UTC)Re: postSludge
Date: 2025-10-12 03:41 am (UTC)...how do you think Arthur and Sokie feel?
Re: postSludge
Date: 2025-10-12 03:43 am (UTC)Re: postSludge
Date: 2025-10-12 03:46 am (UTC)Re: postSludge
Date: 2025-10-12 03:47 am (UTC)Re: postSludge
Date: 2025-10-12 03:49 am (UTC)What Arthur believes in this case is the most important part. Because he won't allow himself near her if he has the faintest thought that he'd hurt her.
Which-
Do you think... I'll...
That I'll be... good? for her?
Re: postSludge
Date: 2025-10-12 01:45 pm (UTC)Re: postSludge
Date: 2025-10-12 02:14 pm (UTC)Why do you think that?
Re: postSludge
Date: 2025-10-12 02:19 pm (UTC)Re: postSludge
Date: 2025-10-12 02:22 pm (UTC)I'll... try not to worry about it as much.
Re: postSludge
Date: 2025-10-12 08:47 pm (UTC)"You worry because it's important to you. And you care. That matters."
He yawns and leans back, unsure of whether he actually wants to get up or not.
Re: postSludge
Date: 2025-10-12 08:49 pm (UTC)It doesn't help if I get too far into my head about it, though.
Re: postSludge
Date: 2025-10-13 01:04 am (UTC)Re: postSludge
Date: 2025-10-13 01:04 am (UTC)Because that's the answer.
Re: postSludge
Date: 2025-10-13 01:25 am (UTC)"Ah. I understand. Carry on."
Re: postSludge
Date: 2025-10-13 01:28 am (UTC)...he's still purring, though.